Okay, I've come out of denial (The 72 hour period of actually think that stupido would actually fight for a good thing) and decided to move on.
Since I can't find something to occupy my time on this blog, I've decided to do a 7 day step of getting over.
Now I want to explain, during the 72 hour, it was mostly a purge. I locked up the heart and if there were tears (which I don't think there were because I was kind of in a daze letting life take over) they've left the building.
Today, I've decided to play two songs.
I should say in order to deal with a hard life situation, you have to face it head on. I cared very deeply for the beau and three years is a long time to erase in 7 days but I have to because I can't allow this to affect me any longer than that.
The first song I've listened to in the morning is India.Arie - I Choose.
Ha ha. YOu thought I was going to say Brian McKnight. Yeah. I did him for 7 days. Literally 24 - 7 until now my ears are just tired of him and that's a lot, although I did sneak him in the morning cause I like to feel good in the morning with a man, LOL even if its just in my ears.
Yeah, the freak in my is still around.
In the afternoon, I reluctantly, because I knew this was going to hurt I force myself to listen to India. Arie untitled song which most people call, This Too Shall Pass.
Yeah. It is and it hurt a lot in the beginning until I started hand signing to it. It made me use my brain instead of my heart and it felt better after about thirty minutes of her.
I still sneak a little Brian McKnight in the middle of the day. AuralGasm are almost as just as good as the physical ones.
stop it freak.
Gimme a break, I'm ovalating.
TMI again huh.
Hey, this really almost sounds like the old Sylvia (before beau) BECAUSE I'M TALKING TO MYSELF OUTLOUD!!!
gawd the madness never ceases. i missed her though. And she's pretty cool to be around and quite entertaining as you can see.
But these steps must be working cause I just smiled.
And I have a pretty smile.
Although if I'd been happier at that concert, Brian McKnight would have seen it too and picked me instead of the colorful fat chick he choose to be on stage with. She got the chance to touch his azz!! He put her hand right on his azz!!
WHY COULDN'T THAT BE ME?!
Alright calm down, Sylvie.
Just have to work harder to get rich and famous just to pay him to come give me a private concert.
Check in tomorrow for step two.
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