Don't worry about the ugly couple, worry about who you kissing forever.

(I remember a long time ago an old woman said that to some young girls talking about two people. I thought it was something silly, but after today it'll make a lot of sense.)

Side note before I get started:

I just know too much

You ever come to the realization that there are just too many file cabinets open in your head.

Yet you know you know a lot of things about a lot of stuff, but love truly is the one thing that escapes me.

Now this is going to be a post that just rolls around the idea of what I have to be in order to get someone and what I am.

I'm smart.

Not ands, ifs or butts about that one. And yes, I spelled but wrong. I did just say I was smart. LOL.

End of side note.

So today I'm looking at this ugly couple walking down the street. And mind you, I'm not one to just call ANYONE ugly, although there were a couple of times during UGLY GUY Day that just still gives me chills in the middle of the middle.

So this couple is walking down the street. They aren't very attractive on the eye. Matter of fact the girl reminds me of a thicker version of Mia's best friend in Princess Diaries. Including with the teeth and messed up hair, which the real life version went from a dirty blonde to dark brown. Her shirt was way too small and she was showing her spare tire. The jeans were too large for her and looked older than her. Her partner had similar hair except it was more greasy and black. I would say he looked like he rolled out of bed and was still rolling in the same clothes he'd worn a week ago.

Now how did I know they were a couple? They were holding hands, talking laughing and once he stopped her and kissed her.

It was the kiss that got my attention.

Please don't think I'm some sick pervert that gets a kick out of watching public intimacy acts, although I don't think I'd stop looking if things got a little freakier. It'd be like sitting on the sidelines watching a train accident, but not doing anything to help anyone out. Heck, I might buy popcorn for that one.

So this couple is just talking and walking and kissing and they pass by me not giving me a second glance.

They are in their own world and it hits me.

It was like Billy Dee in that movie when he pins Diana Ross down and says it all means nothing if you have no one to share it with.

BTW: OMG I just found the movie in eleven pieces on youtube. Start here:

O/T: only Billy Dee Williams can carry off a pink turtleneck.

So as I'm looking at this not so attractive couple I'm going to be honest and say, I was kinda jealous.

I don't think I've been kissed outside in a very very long while.

But most importantly, they were enjoying each others company and I would love to be able to do that with someone.

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So we turn back to my off note remark at the beginning.

Being smart.

In the past I've truly had to dumb down myself in order to equal myself of the other sex.

I don't profess to be a genius. I don't want to be.

I just know a lot of stuff, but that does not mean I don't want to stop learning or I would stifle your learning. I love to be mentally challenged, but I know everyone can't be me and I certainly don't want anyone I have to mentally battle all the time.

I think in a way someone has something everything wants. And though this couple could have had not even a pot to piss in, they had something I wanted.

I know it's wrong to be jealous or envious, and it's silly for me even admit something like that, but I just felt I needed to be real with myself and as always real with what I put on LABW.

Oh kay, let me go and worry about who I'm going to be kissing...